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It’s kind of sad that this is true. ~
I need to keep reminding myself that eating disorders are mental illnesses, not physical ones. Because I am starting to develop some physical signs of recovery, I fear that I am no longer sick. And that scares me. But really, the eating disorder gets stronger when this happens, because the thoughts grow worse. ~
I compare myself to other girls and wish I were anyone but myself. I am disgusted by my body when I sit, move, or just stand still. I am fascinated with being near death, and daydream about being so thin that I would have to be in a wheelchair. I criticize myself for not being harsh enough with myself. I fantasize about taking a large knife and cutting all the unwanted flesh off my body. I feel joy when I see my hair falling out in chunks or hear that my weight has dropped. I ignore the wishes of my family if they get in the way of a plan to restrict. I stand in front of mirrors and body check until I am sweating from the exhaustion of trying to clench and squeeze my body in many ways, and lay crying in my bed. I believe I am not lovable, but want more than anything to feel loved. I tell myself that because I am not willing to fall back into my eating disorder completely and end up hooked up to a tube on the brink of death that I am a lazy failure. ~
I often feel guilty after writing things like this, like I am just craving attention. But I want to show that eating disorders are not a lifestyle choice, or a phase. They are a poisonous mindset, and one that can be destructive in any body type. It also just feels good to get out some of my feelings, and that is okay too. Expressing feelings we would normally hide is part of healing. ~
So if you are struggling with accepting the validity of your battles, remember that Eds don’t get stronger or weaker with weight gain/loss. If you compare yourself to others, or hate how you look, or battle self-depreciating thoughts, you can be sure that your struggle is real. It’s easy to battle when people can see what is wrong physically. The hard part is dealing with what comes later.