The next step of this admission was a Ceftaz graded drug challenge...which is where they give me increasing doses of ceftazadime (an IV antibiotic). I got two itchy, red patches on my body, but thankfully no sign of breathing issues, so I officially “won” the challenge ;) We will be continuing on Ceftaz for as long as my body and blood counts will allow (hopefully for about 3 weeks). Just keep swimming! If you’re interested to see behind the scenes of my hospital stay, click the link in my bio. #cysticfibrosis#ivantibiotics#thefreylife#CFirl#justdoit#justkeepswimming#doingmybest#ichoosejoy
Sink or swim? I can’t tell you how many times this prep I’ve wanted to let myself sink. So many other things were introduced into my life that I’ve considered far more important— school, a new job, starting my own business, and all of my personal relationships. Is this my favorite look to date? Eh. BUT Did I give this prep my heart and soul? Yes. Deserve to be here? Hell yeah. Leaving it all on the stage tomorrow and jumping into improvement season full force? Duh, how else to end one helluva competition season??🎉Not just in competing, but once you’ve committed to something... no matter the adversity, no matter the excuses, the legitimate reasons, competition, or the circumstances... are you going to swim or are you going to let yourself sink? You’d be surprised what you can do when you #JUSTKEEPSWIMMING 🐠 #LETSGETIT#NPCNATIONALS
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ~I fall in love with being alive everyday. ✨✨Update 16.11.17 ✨✨ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ So jetzt bin ich schon seit 3 Tagen isoliert und ich muss echt sagen das ich von Tag zu Tag mehr Respekt kriege vor dem was mich noch erwartet. Die Hochdosis - Chemo ist wirklich total hart , ich bin sonst wirklich hart im nehmen und gewinne jeder Situation etwas positives ab, aber momentan bin ich einfach nur froh wenn ich meinen Körper tagsüber zwingen kann zu schlafen, damit ich dieses ekelhafte Chemogefühl nicht wach miterleben muss. Dafür ist gegen Abend das giftige Zeug wieder halbwegs aus meinem Körper gespült und es geht mir besser. Morgen wird nochmal ein Harter Tag: 2 Chemos und im Anschluss Antikörper vom Kaninchen 🐇 Die sollen total unangenehm werden ... Aber man soll ja immer auf das schauen was man schon geleistet hat , nicht auf das was kommt. Und ich habe schon 3 Tage weniger bis ich in ein neues Leben starten kann, darauf kann ich stolz sein🙏🏼 Ich schicke euch ganz ganz viel Liebe aus meinem kleinen Aquarium 🐠 #justkeepswimming#kickingcancersass#giballesnurnichtauf#hardtimes#teenagecancer#stemcelltransplant
..face your fear. Saya takjub dengan kekuatan anak-anak menghadapi ketakutannya. Waktu umur 2.5 tahun, twin pernah trauma daycare sampai enggan sekolah. Time heals, sampai mereka sekarang soo enjoy sekolah lagi. Kapan hari, mereka pernah agak klelep saat berenang. Sempat trauma, tapi hanya sebentar. Selanjutnya mereka enjoy berenang lagi. Awalnya pelampung tangan, lepas pelampung papan, sekarang berani tanpa pelampung. I learn a lot from you two lil fishes.. just keep swimming..
Sorry I haven't been posting very much! I'm off work for 2 days now so maybe I can do some baking ? 🤔 I mostly just want to clean my room today as it looks like a tornado has hit it! Now that that the thrill of having a new job has worn off and life has somewhat returned to "normal " and back to routine, it's becoming harder to eat again! I eat breakfast alone (no one else is awake at 6.30) and lunch alone on my lunch break and it's very easy to just...not! I've been gaining and it makes me feel so dirty but I can't slip back now! It's coming up to Christmas (busy time of year for florists) so I'll need that energy to be working overtime! Distraction is key! Keeping busy helps alot so that my mind and thoughts can't wonder into dark places.
How is everyone? Hope you're all doing well and continuing to fight daily!
Every career has it's struggles, but mine is special because I can come home from a long night of being in a kitchen, and relax by being back in the kitchen. Meat and beans on the outside for chili, and in the middle mise'ing out zucchini bread for making in the morning.
To paraphrase one of my favorite lines from @realstanhope No Refund's album: If you wouldn't do it for free, fucking quit.
Essentials while writing~ Frappucino and positive thoughts. #phdpanda
I suppose, the wisdom to realise when to start writing is the most valuable attribute one can have. I can spend days on an end reading literature and end up being clueless about what to write-- 'Genius is about knowing when to stop.' .
Things always seem very clear in my head but when it comes to writing, I struggle a lot. So, I have decided to test the strategy of typing notes while reading and allotting time to write sections of my paper/essay.