This is probably the perfect way of describing my anxiety: my brain firing 1000 different worst-case scenarios at me all at once until it basically feels like they are all happening at once (even though most of them are completely unrealistic).
I read a really well written article by The Mighty the other week about what "high functioning" anxiety feels like (give it a google if you're interested) which describes so well how I have felt for the vast majority of my life. I come across quite calm and together, I know how to work hard and have achieved a lot of things that I am proud of, but behind that is a brain that will not shut up 🤐 Constantly worrying or over analysing. I NEED a plan, a routine, to organise my day and week so that I feel comfortable and safe. If plans change I internally freak out, and god forbid I DON'T have a plan 🤦🏼♀️
I'm constantly working on finding ways to deal with this anxiety, become more "easy going" (otherwise known as flexible with my plans) and be kind to myself. This week is a tough one for me, starting a new routine, not knowing what I am doing, and yes I am a big ball of anxiety right now.
So I wanted to share because #mentalhealthawareness
is so important to me. Anxiety is so common and yet it can make you feel so alone, but I'm here to tell you you're not.