Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)

Ayra Siddiqui

@ayroid

the ghost of ghosts

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at home that night 
i filled the bathtub with scorching water
tossed in spearmint from the garden 
some milk
and honey 
a pinch of salt 
rose petals from the neighbour's lawn 
i soaked myself in the mixture 
desperate to wash the dirt off
the first hour 
i picked pine needles from my hair 
counted them one two three 
lined them up on their backs 
the second hour 
i wept
a howling escaped me
who knew girl could become beast 
during the third hour
i found bits of him on bits of me 
the sweat was not mine 
the bite marks 
not mine
the scent 
not mine 
the blood 
mine
the fourth hour i prayed 
it felt like he threw me 
so far from myself 
i've been trying to find my way back ever since
|where am i|
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


at home that night i filled the bathtub with scorching water tossed in spearmint from the garden some milk and honey a pinch of salt rose petals from the neighbour's lawn i soaked myself in the mixture desperate to wash the dirt off the first hour i picked pine needles from my hair counted them one two three lined them up on their backs the second hour i wept a howling escaped me who knew girl could become beast during the third hour i found bits of him on bits of me the sweat was not mine the bite marks not mine the scent not mine the blood mine the fourth hour i prayed it felt like he threw me so far from myself i've been trying to find my way back ever since |where am i| . . . #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #writersera #tagsforlikes #ibnbattuta #food #foodie #foodplaces #loveforfood #aesthetic #ancient #beautiful #instagram #instagood #instadaily #instalove #poetsofig #poetryofig #poetryslam #poetrycommunity #mondays #mondayblues #moodygrams #love #writing

this is the recipe of life 
said my mother 
as she held me in her arms as I wept 
think of those flowers you plant 
in the garden each year 
they will teach you 
that people too 
must wilt 
fall
root
rise
in order to bloom .
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


this is the recipe of life said my mother as she held me in her arms as I wept think of those flowers you plant in the garden each year they will teach you that people too must wilt fall root rise in order to bloom . . . . #thesunandherflowers #rupikaur #book #reader #flowers #red #poetry #poetryisart #poetryofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #sundays #instagram #instagood #instalove #instadaily #like4like #bookworm #books #picture #photography #captured #karachi #pakistan #captions #favouriteauthor

I know you had some tough nights where you cried till your tears could fill buckets. I know you felt like the world has knocked you down and that you just can't get up. But let me tell you that you are going to get up, yes you are. You are going to get right back up. It isn't the end of the world although it may feel like one. People will let you down and you might let a few down too but you've got to live through it and deal with it. And when I say deal with it don't mistake it with crying-on-the-bathroom-floor type of deal, you've got to deal with it by fighting against all odds like a warrior because YOU ARE A WARRIOR. You are born with powers that no one can ever have. You just have to find them and use them. This might feel like a hard, impossible journey and you might not know where it leads but along the way it'll surely teach you how to live and how to forgive. These dark days are going to come and go like a rollercoaster's highs and lows. You are going to feel shattered but it's not going to be forever. You are going to have some blue days and some black days but you've got to paint them in your own damn beautiful colours. You don't need to hide yesterdays scars. You don't have to pretend that you don't have a heart. 
You are more like a porcelain vase with a few cracks to me. You try too hard to cover those cracks but you should know how beautiful you look when the light shines through those cracks and that these are the imperfections that make you so perfect. So let them be, don't be ashamed of them. Take all those sad things that life throws at you with courage and reflect back at them but PLEASE don't force yourself to feel happy because sometimes feeling happy is not everything. Embrace everything that you are and every feel that you feel, be it happiness or even sadness. You are going to have bad days but you are definitely going to have good ones too, for what is a rainbow without some rain or a day without its night? So cry as much as you want but don't forget to laugh twice as hard.
- @fawadhuns

Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


I know you had some tough nights where you cried till your tears could fill buckets. I know you felt like the world has knocked you down and that you just can't get up. But let me tell you that you are going to get up, yes you are. You are going to get right back up. It isn't the end of the world although it may feel like one. People will let you down and you might let a few down too but you've got to live through it and deal with it. And when I say deal with it don't mistake it with crying-on-the-bathroom-floor type of deal, you've got to deal with it by fighting against all odds like a warrior because YOU ARE A WARRIOR. You are born with powers that no one can ever have. You just have to find them and use them. This might feel like a hard, impossible journey and you might not know where it leads but along the way it'll surely teach you how to live and how to forgive. These dark days are going to come and go like a rollercoaster's highs and lows. You are going to feel shattered but it's not going to be forever. You are going to have some blue days and some black days but you've got to paint them in your own damn beautiful colours. You don't need to hide yesterdays scars. You don't have to pretend that you don't have a heart.  You are more like a porcelain vase with a few cracks to me. You try too hard to cover those cracks but you should know how beautiful you look when the light shines through those cracks and that these are the imperfections that make you so perfect. So let them be, don't be ashamed of them. Take all those sad things that life throws at you with courage and reflect back at them but PLEASE don't force yourself to feel happy because sometimes feeling happy is not everything. Embrace everything that you are and every feel that you feel, be it happiness or even sadness. You are going to have bad days but you are definitely going to have good ones too, for what is a rainbow without some rain or a day without its night? So cry as much as you want but don't forget to laugh twice as hard. - @fawadhuns

Look at me 
look at my flames burn low because they're fed out of the oil of your heart 
like a rose I'm plucking my flesh apart and all the skin I've clawed at has your name carved on it like sliced meat 
still I continue 
removing you from myself like a stain 
cleaning the cuts gashed by your words like jagged edges 
This rage in me is beautiful
burning with a flickering flame 
all my hair standing up and crackling blue sparks, 
eyes blazing and sputtering 
cause I've opened them 
they're sore and red from you getting drunk on them
like a child they were full of hope and love and all they searched for was your embrace 
now they have little innocent demons in them 
and they recklessly play with matches, 
you won't ever see sparks so pretty
the fire they spawned was growing in me to keep you warm 
but now I'll just have to use it to burn you down .
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


Look at me look at my flames burn low because they're fed out of the oil of your heart like a rose I'm plucking my flesh apart and all the skin I've clawed at has your name carved on it like sliced meat still I continue removing you from myself like a stain cleaning the cuts gashed by your words like jagged edges This rage in me is beautiful burning with a flickering flame all my hair standing up and crackling blue sparks, eyes blazing and sputtering cause I've opened them they're sore and red from you getting drunk on them like a child they were full of hope and love and all they searched for was your embrace now they have little innocent demons in them and they recklessly play with matches, you won't ever see sparks so pretty the fire they spawned was growing in me to keep you warm but now I'll just have to use it to burn you down . . . #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #writers #photography #photograph #chinese #foodplaces #foodie #favplaces #karachi #sundays #saturdays #moodygrams #black #fire #poeticjustice #poetsofig #poetryofinstagram #poetryislove #wordporn #poetryslam #instagram #instagood #instadaily #instalove

La 
La 
La 
La 
she sang 
her eyes were tired 
growing heavy with weight 
to the point where they had to drip and drain the residual pain left behind 
there was an emptiness in them 
like a ghost tired of haunting 
and it was almost like in that moment, she didn't want to be surrounded by those four walls
even if they were satin lined and diamond studded 
she didn't want to be singing her five year old to sleep 
she had asked life for much more than this 
she was trapped 
under a roof 
in a home 
in a world, so different from hers 
there were no stop signs or speed limits where she wanted to go,
no strings pulling her back,
just a road and her free spirit 
Doo
Doo
Doo 
Doo
she crooned,
flipping pancakes at 8 in the morning 
her hair was a mess and she reeked of alcohol 
and it was almost like in that moment, she didn't want to be in that kitchen hungover from last night 
she wanted to do so much more than make breakfast and pack lunch
she was a storm,
a destroyer of life,
it's surprising she held things together for so long
Believe me when I say this,
she was everything 
she was the sort of beauty the moon shies away from and the sun rises to get a glance at 
the sort of strength needed to push a mountain aside or even tear it to shreds 
the kind of determination that if all of us had, the world would be a different place 
the depth of affection that you crave all your life until you're old and wrinkly 
she was something 
something crazy and unstoppable and relentless and full of surprises 
someone who will be remembered by thousands of people
even if that means being forgotten by the ones she bore 
someone who set records and achieved all there is to life 
even if that meant losing the people she was tied to by fate 
someone who's voice the world heard -
even if that meant those she sang to didn't [losses and gains]
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


La La La La she sang her eyes were tired growing heavy with weight to the point where they had to drip and drain the residual pain left behind there was an emptiness in them like a ghost tired of haunting and it was almost like in that moment, she didn't want to be surrounded by those four walls even if they were satin lined and diamond studded she didn't want to be singing her five year old to sleep she had asked life for much more than this she was trapped under a roof in a home in a world, so different from hers there were no stop signs or speed limits where she wanted to go, no strings pulling her back, just a road and her free spirit Doo Doo Doo Doo she crooned, flipping pancakes at 8 in the morning her hair was a mess and she reeked of alcohol and it was almost like in that moment, she didn't want to be in that kitchen hungover from last night she wanted to do so much more than make breakfast and pack lunch she was a storm, a destroyer of life, it's surprising she held things together for so long Believe me when I say this, she was everything she was the sort of beauty the moon shies away from and the sun rises to get a glance at the sort of strength needed to push a mountain aside or even tear it to shreds the kind of determination that if all of us had, the world would be a different place the depth of affection that you crave all your life until you're old and wrinkly she was something something crazy and unstoppable and relentless and full of surprises someone who will be remembered by thousands of people even if that means being forgotten by the ones she bore someone who set records and achieved all there is to life even if that meant losing the people she was tied to by fate someone who's voice the world heard - even if that meant those she sang to didn't [losses and gains] . . #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #writersnetwork #writersofig #writer #photography #spilledink #writingislife #leaves #fridays #memories #girl #instagram #instagood #instadaily #moodygrams #aesthetic #autumn #mosque #like4like #spilledwords #spilledthoughts

Her waters aren't safe and calm 
they are electric 
they pass current through one another until they reach a dead man
they can't be made a home out of 
She's not slow and steady 
she's wood caught on fire 
with the fire raging through forests burning down wilderness 
such destruction she can cause by only moving forwards 
you can't shelter her 
What your heart wants is safety
somebody to protect you from your own self 
flesh so helpless you can feed off of it 
a soul so meek you can easily control it
and you know she is far from passive 
yet you crush all your hearts desires after one look at her 
and you still crave the taste of her fury
It's as if your spirit needs her more than a refuge 
like her danger is far more exciting to you than a safe haven 
and that scares you because where you bring out the quiet in people 
she brings out the noise in you 
and if you ever try taming her 
you'll wipe yourself out in the process \your dilemma\
P.C: @salmannaveedphotography .
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


Her waters aren't safe and calm they are electric they pass current through one another until they reach a dead man they can't be made a home out of She's not slow and steady she's wood caught on fire with the fire raging through forests burning down wilderness such destruction she can cause by only moving forwards you can't shelter her What your heart wants is safety somebody to protect you from your own self flesh so helpless you can feed off of it a soul so meek you can easily control it and you know she is far from passive yet you crush all your hearts desires after one look at her and you still crave the taste of her fury It's as if your spirit needs her more than a refuge like her danger is far more exciting to you than a safe haven and that scares you because where you bring out the quiet in people she brings out the noise in you and if you ever try taming her you'll wipe yourself out in the process \your dilemma\ P.C: @salmannaveedphotography . . #pakistan #nangaparbat #photography #photographer #talented #sundays #writer #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #instagram #instadaily #instagood #moodygrams #fire #mountains #cold #writingprompts #like4like #beautiful #capture

One fine day, it will be your turn.
You will leave
homes,
cities,
and countries
to pursue grander ambitions.
You will leave 
friends, 
lovers, 
and possibilities, 
for the chance to roam the world and make deeper connections.
You will defy your fear of change, 
hold your head high, 
and do what you once thought was unthinkable; walk away.
It'll be scary at first 
But what I hope you’ll discover in the end is that in leaving,
you don’t just find 
love, 
adventure, 
or freedom.
More than anything, you find
you.
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[K.P]
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


One fine day, it will be your turn. You will leave homes, cities, and countries to pursue grander ambitions. You will leave friends, lovers, and possibilities, for the chance to roam the world and make deeper connections. You will defy your fear of change, hold your head high, and do what you once thought was unthinkable; walk away. It'll be scary at first But what I hope you’ll discover in the end is that in leaving, you don’t just find love, adventure, or freedom. More than anything, you find you. . . . [K.P] #wordporn #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #photography #flowers #purple #sidewalk #gameoftones #edits #contrast #thursdays #instagram #instagood #instadaily #moodygrams #ig #like4like

I try to give you strength when you come home battered and weak 
And fix your clipped wings, I try to remind you soaring with eagles is what you're made for
-giving you pieces of myself to consume so you can get back on your feet 
I am your fuel
I try to show you where you lack and the beauty in your cracks 
As I help you breathe through the bullet holes in your lungs,
Stiching the knife marks itched in your back 
And they see that
They see you coming to me at the end of the day for your selfish reasons 
And they know 
They know I am the sky you dream of and the ground that keeps your feet on it /
but they don't see you cleaning my cuts and kissing away the red in my eyes each night 
Or how in the dark, you keep me so close to your heart brushing away my fears 
They don't know if I am all this, you are my anchor
When my sails are torn, through rough waves and cold winds 
Holding me, guiding me home
You bring me back 
Every time I go spiraling, wrapped with the breeze 
Wherever I head 
However I hide 
I come back 
And I always will 
I am anchored to you //Only I see, only you know/

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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


I try to give you strength when you come home battered and weak And fix your clipped wings, I try to remind you soaring with eagles is what you're made for -giving you pieces of myself to consume so you can get back on your feet I am your fuel I try to show you where you lack and the beauty in your cracks As I help you breathe through the bullet holes in your lungs, Stiching the knife marks itched in your back And they see that They see you coming to me at the end of the day for your selfish reasons And they know They know I am the sky you dream of and the ground that keeps your feet on it / but they don't see you cleaning my cuts and kissing away the red in my eyes each night Or how in the dark, you keep me so close to your heart brushing away my fears They don't know if I am all this, you are my anchor When my sails are torn, through rough waves and cold winds Holding me, guiding me home You bring me back Every time I go spiraling, wrapped with the breeze Wherever I head However I hide I come back And I always will I am anchored to you //Only I see, only you know/ #wordporn #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #skyporn #love #sky #instagram #instagood #instadaily #moodygrams #capture #photography #tuesdays

You're not friends
You'll never be friends
You'll be in love till it kills you both
You'll fight and you'll shag 
And you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver,
But you'll never be friends
Love isn't brains, children 
It's blood,
-Blood screaming inside you to work it's will [BTVS]
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


You're not friends You'll never be friends You'll be in love till it kills you both You'll fight and you'll shag And you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, But you'll never be friends Love isn't brains, children It's blood, -Blood screaming inside you to work it's will [BTVS] . . . . #johnnyrocket #bahadurabad #foodie #foodplaces #car #white #fridays #buffythevampireslayer #btvs #wordporn #writersofinstagram #quotes #love #friends #friendship #photography #photographer #art #writersblock #instagood #instagram #instadaily #moodygrams #karachi #favoriteplaces

There comes a time in your life you realize you should've turned the page earlier
But now that your fingers are cold and dead because you dug them in a little too deep in fear of letting go, it's too late 
Now that you've forgotten your name and the walls you scribbled it on are covered with your blood-red masterpieces, it's too late 
You spent your winters by the fire, lost in its eerie flames 
And the summer by the waters, drowning in their waves 
You didn't allow spring and its colours to bring you joy 
And when Autumn brought you its gold, you turned away coy 
If only you had known that these seasons would come and go and that the wind wouldn't travel with you, maybe you would've done things differently 
Had you seen time with its wings, you would be aware of how it flies and how it'll soon pass you by
And if I had whispered this in your ears before
It would be clear to you 
That you may not, but the world moves on.
/Le Temps Passe🕛/
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


There comes a time in your life you realize you should've turned the page earlier But now that your fingers are cold and dead because you dug them in a little too deep in fear of letting go, it's too late Now that you've forgotten your name and the walls you scribbled it on are covered with your blood-red masterpieces, it's too late You spent your winters by the fire, lost in its eerie flames And the summer by the waters, drowning in their waves You didn't allow spring and its colours to bring you joy And when Autumn brought you its gold, you turned away coy If only you had known that these seasons would come and go and that the wind wouldn't travel with you, maybe you would've done things differently Had you seen time with its wings, you would be aware of how it flies and how it'll soon pass you by And if I had whispered this in your ears before It would be clear to you That you may not, but the world moves on. /Le Temps Passe🕛/ . . . #Fridays #time #timeflies #world #life #school #flowers #writersofinstagram #writersblock #writerscommunity #writers #poetryofig #poetryporn #poetry #poetryisart #wordporn #instagram #instagood #instadaily #moodygrams #nature #flowery #movingon #thoughtoftheday

We live on a blue planet that circles around a ball of fire next to a moon that moves the sea, and you don't believe in miracles?
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


We live on a blue planet that circles around a ball of fire next to a moon that moves the sea, and you don't believe in miracles? . . . . . #instagram #instagood #instadaily #moodygrams #saturdays #subway #foodplace #foodie #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #writersblock #writer #photography #capture #contrast #blue #edits #vision #miracles #earth #life

When you’re that person who's always there for other people— you feel a lot. You have depths within you, an ocean for a heart.
You hurt. My god, do you hurt. You ache, wondering if someone will ever give you the love you so freely give to others.
And when that doesn’t happen, you heal yourself. You find strength in things other than people. You find energy in your solitude, you find hope in your daydreams. You build yourself up, tell yourself that you don’t need anyone to save you, that you don’t need anyone to steady your foundation.
But you do.
See, sometimes the person who is always there for everyone else, needs somebody to be there for them. Sometimes, the one who smiles the biggest is hurting the most. Sometimes the person who encourages everyone else needs to be told that they are appreciated, that they matter; sometimes they too need encouragement.
So, if you’re someone who's always there for others, know that your heart is rare. Know that you hold within you an ability to calm storms in people. Know that you give people hope, that you inspire them by acknowledging the pieces of them most ignore, that you make people feel wanted, that you make people feel like they have purpose.
However, also remind yourself that you are not invincible. Your heart needs rest. You need rest. Remind yourself that you do not need to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, that you may not be able to save everyone, that you may not be able to heal every hurt. Remind yourself that you deserve to take all of the energy you put out into the world and invest it back into yourself from time to time. That you are worthy of the love you keep giving to everyone else. Remind yourself, that you don’t always have to be strong, that you don’t always have to be the fixer. Remind yourself that you can be human, that you can ask for help; that you don’t always have to be the one to save yourself.

Picture credits:
@creekashley

Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


When you’re that person who's always there for other people— you feel a lot. You have depths within you, an ocean for a heart. You hurt. My god, do you hurt. You ache, wondering if someone will ever give you the love you so freely give to others. And when that doesn’t happen, you heal yourself. You find strength in things other than people. You find energy in your solitude, you find hope in your daydreams. You build yourself up, tell yourself that you don’t need anyone to save you, that you don’t need anyone to steady your foundation. But you do. See, sometimes the person who is always there for everyone else, needs somebody to be there for them. Sometimes, the one who smiles the biggest is hurting the most. Sometimes the person who encourages everyone else needs to be told that they are appreciated, that they matter; sometimes they too need encouragement. So, if you’re someone who's always there for others, know that your heart is rare. Know that you hold within you an ability to calm storms in people. Know that you give people hope, that you inspire them by acknowledging the pieces of them most ignore, that you make people feel wanted, that you make people feel like they have purpose. However, also remind yourself that you are not invincible. Your heart needs rest. You need rest. Remind yourself that you do not need to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, that you may not be able to save everyone, that you may not be able to heal every hurt. Remind yourself that you deserve to take all of the energy you put out into the world and invest it back into yourself from time to time. That you are worthy of the love you keep giving to everyone else. Remind yourself, that you don’t always have to be strong, that you don’t always have to be the fixer. Remind yourself that you can be human, that you can ask for help; that you don’t always have to be the one to save yourself. Picture credits: @creekashley

And I guess if only we had someone to rock us to sleep 
And hold us tight,
We would've been a little less broken 
Had someone picked us up when we fell 
And cleaned our cuts 
We wouldn't have gotten so used to pain 
And maybe just maybe, if we had been taught what fire does to you, 
We wouldn't have burned ourselves to the ground.
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


And I guess if only we had someone to rock us to sleep And hold us tight, We would've been a little less broken Had someone picked us up when we fell And cleaned our cuts We wouldn't have gotten so used to pain And maybe just maybe, if we had been taught what fire does to you, We wouldn't have burned ourselves to the ground. . . . #fire burn #wordporn #writerscommunity #wrtiersofinstagram #writers #writer #instagram #instagood #instadaily #moodygram #moodyvibes #photography #art #foodplaces #favouriteplacetoeat #pizza #broadway #broadwaypizza #thursday #wednesday #colors #contrast

I'm mad, I really am 
Mad about living. Mad about talking. Mad about wanting to save everyone. Desirous of everything at the same time. 
Wanting to burn, burn, burn like yellow Roman candles,
Exploding like spiders across the sky. This madness is extraordinary. It shows you the secrets of the world hidden in your very own nature. It takes you to a place only you understand where constellations form in your eyes instead of the sky, 
And where galaxies aren't in space,
They're growing inside you
As if you're a whole universe yourself, carrying the weight of all the stars on your shoulders 
It gives you stories to tell when you're old and wrinkly like you've lived one of the best lives there is to offer -making people think you chose the right path, went on the road that lead to being happy and took the shortest route -Not knowing that madness doesn't come easy, madness is a choice 
A choice you make when you're standing at an intersection with everything at stake 
A decision that determines who you are 
And when you make that final call
You either go through with it or grow apart from yourself making your life, like all other things in this world, mediocre. (I choose madness over mediocrity)
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


I'm mad, I really am Mad about living. Mad about talking. Mad about wanting to save everyone. Desirous of everything at the same time. Wanting to burn, burn, burn like yellow Roman candles, Exploding like spiders across the sky. This madness is extraordinary. It shows you the secrets of the world hidden in your very own nature. It takes you to a place only you understand where constellations form in your eyes instead of the sky, And where galaxies aren't in space, They're growing inside you As if you're a whole universe yourself, carrying the weight of all the stars on your shoulders It gives you stories to tell when you're old and wrinkly like you've lived one of the best lives there is to offer -making people think you chose the right path, went on the road that lead to being happy and took the shortest route -Not knowing that madness doesn't come easy, madness is a choice A choice you make when you're standing at an intersection with everything at stake A decision that determines who you are And when you make that final call You either go through with it or grow apart from yourself making your life, like all other things in this world, mediocre. (I choose madness over mediocrity) . . . . #tuesday #wordporn #mad #ordinary #writersofinstagram #writersofig #moodygram #route #californiapizza #pizza #food #foodplaces #writerscommunity #instagram #istagood #instadaily #insta #photography #art #captures #pic #orange #boot #bike #66

I have decided that I'm done, today
I am done trying to lock you out of my thoughts, denying you have the spare key 
I am done trying to forget your voice since every songbird sounds like it must've taken lessons from you
I'm done trying to erase the memory of you because every dust swirl and cloud puff paints portraits of your face 
I'm simply done 
I will do now what I do best 
I will love you
I will mend my heart and make it whole so I can love you with all the love it can humanly contain 
And for that,
I don't need to see you or go on long walks with you like we used to
I don't need to touch you or play with your hair or hold your hand 
We don't need to have lunch together or go down empty streets with the windows down and music blaring 
You don't even have to give me hope or lay your face on my lap on a Saturday afternoon in the middle of nowhere telling me what you want to do in life -Just the realization of your existence is enough for me 
The thought that you are under the same sky as me and that you are real-what we had was real, is enough for me 
I will not dwell on the past 
I will not abandon my dreams
And I will not let you go, You are my blood and bones 
I will simply love you as long as I breathe,
The moon shines 
And the sun burns
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


I have decided that I'm done, today I am done trying to lock you out of my thoughts, denying you have the spare key I am done trying to forget your voice since every songbird sounds like it must've taken lessons from you I'm done trying to erase the memory of you because every dust swirl and cloud puff paints portraits of your face I'm simply done I will do now what I do best I will love you I will mend my heart and make it whole so I can love you with all the love it can humanly contain And for that, I don't need to see you or go on long walks with you like we used to I don't need to touch you or play with your hair or hold your hand We don't need to have lunch together or go down empty streets with the windows down and music blaring You don't even have to give me hope or lay your face on my lap on a Saturday afternoon in the middle of nowhere telling me what you want to do in life -Just the realization of your existence is enough for me The thought that you are under the same sky as me and that you are real-what we had was real, is enough for me I will not dwell on the past I will not abandon my dreams And I will not let you go, You are my blood and bones I will simply love you as long as I breathe, The moon shines And the sun burns . . . . #sun #skyporn #wordporn #love #life #instagram #ig #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #heart #thoughtoftheday #blue #blues #monday #mondayblues #light #instagood #instadaily #mood #moodygram #girl #words #lovequotes #insta

And I guess sometimes,
When you make my bones feel heartache, I often forget what you're going through 
When you wrap your hand around my heart so tight it bleeds and I can feel the blood in the form of tears oozing out of my eyes, I disregard how much you must be hurting 
Call me self-absorbed but I don't think about how you've been holding things together when the sharp ends I've been keeping glued together fall to the ground, cutting my skin
I should be feeling sorry for you, shouldn't I-when the pangs of separation creep into my soul to slowly suck the life out of me instead of sympathizing with my own pathetic self 
Isn't this the sort of love you want?
Aren't these the sacrifices you yearn for?
Darling, I don't know how I'll ever be able to make you understand 
Grief is grief
Yours cannot be greater owing to the fact that you're the fighter 
And sacrifice is sacrifice 
Mine cannot be belittled because I'm the lover
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Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


And I guess sometimes, When you make my bones feel heartache, I often forget what you're going through When you wrap your hand around my heart so tight it bleeds and I can feel the blood in the form of tears oozing out of my eyes, I disregard how much you must be hurting Call me self-absorbed but I don't think about how you've been holding things together when the sharp ends I've been keeping glued together fall to the ground, cutting my skin I should be feeling sorry for you, shouldn't I-when the pangs of separation creep into my soul to slowly suck the life out of me instead of sympathizing with my own pathetic self Isn't this the sort of love you want? Aren't these the sacrifices you yearn for? Darling, I don't know how I'll ever be able to make you understand Grief is grief Yours cannot be greater owing to the fact that you're the fighter And sacrifice is sacrifice Mine cannot be belittled because I'm the lover . . . . #chinese #chinesefood #chineseplace #love #sacrifice #grief #heart #lover #fighter #writesofinstagram #foodplaces #myfavouriteplace #writer #photographer #writerscommunity #photography #instagram #instagood #instadaily #insta #ig #sunday #thoughtoftheday💭

In Japan, broken objects are often repaired with gold. The flaw is seen as a unique gift of the object's history - which adds to it's beauty.
|Consider this when you feel broken|

Ayra Siddiqui (@ayroid)


In Japan, broken objects are often repaired with gold. The flaw is seen as a unique gift of the object's history - which adds to it's beauty. |Consider this when you feel broken|