Gothicc (@gothic_era)

Gothicc

@gothic_era

•soft gore•self harm• •Submission pictures are accepted• •Don't report, this account isnt for snitches or pussies•

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Not only have I fucked up I've cracked under peer pressure, my own pressure, putting myself in these positions where I'm so vulnerable but im not im pathetic and you know it she knows it he knows it I brag about the people I've fucked the drugs I've tried recently im a child barely able to consent to my own thoughts I shouldn't be having of wanting more drugs more sex more money more nothingness such as death. I want to pass. I want to be gone. Just as many others are. They're just gone. Once they're gone it's just done. Cry for an hour but nothing can change that it's just done Im gone im dead I'm nothing move on. I want to move on to another time another life I'm insane not only for death but for you I'm crazy for you but who is the you I'm talking about. I don't know of anyone I love. I gave my sister my candy because she wanted it is that love. I gave my mom the ability to trust me to tell her that I don't do drugs or have sex or do anything she considers unacceptable but I lie just so she won't be hurt is that love. I don't know love. You never loved me. He never loved me and neither did the last or next guy. It's a game. Got love?•_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Not only have I fucked up I've cracked under peer pressure, my own pressure, putting myself in these positions where I'm so vulnerable but im not im pathetic and you know it she knows it he knows it I brag about the people I've fucked the drugs I've tried recently im a child barely able to consent to my own thoughts I shouldn't be having of wanting more drugs more sex more money more nothingness such as death. I want to pass. I want to be gone. Just as many others are. They're just gone. Once they're gone it's just done. Cry for an hour but nothing can change that it's just done Im gone im dead I'm nothing move on. I want to move on to another time another life I'm insane not only for death but for you I'm crazy for you but who is the you I'm talking about. I don't know of anyone I love. I gave my sister my candy because she wanted it is that love. I gave my mom the ability to trust me to tell her that I don't do drugs or have sex or do anything she considers unacceptable but I lie just so she won't be hurt is that love. I don't know love. You never loved me. He never loved me and neither did the last or next guy. It's a game. Got love?•_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

I have a really bad feeling I've had this feeling for maybe a week now I fucked up i tried to take it back but idk if it'll work I probably look stupid but something feels off I'm probably becoming psychotic In need of a psychologist/ psychiatrist/ psychiatry can help those in need in other words me when I'm in need and no one understands that this is not normal account no normal owner no normal me back when I used to be happy but it doesn't work like that now I do depend on everything I used to be against like drugs sex hooking up I've never felt real love and bitches can't be trusted I'll remain in this constant state of hope and regret a lot of regret but all I can do is feel nothing and be happy at the same time. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

I have a really bad feeling I've had this feeling for maybe a week now I fucked up i tried to take it back but idk if it'll work I probably look stupid but something feels off I'm probably becoming psychotic In need of a psychologist/ psychiatrist/ psychiatry can help those in need in other words me when I'm in need and no one understands that this is not normal account no normal owner no normal me back when I used to be happy but it doesn't work like that now I do depend on everything I used to be against like drugs sex hooking up I've never felt real love and bitches can't be trusted I'll remain in this constant state of hope and regret a lot of regret but all I can do is feel nothing and be happy at the same time. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

I just did something I'll forever regret. I can't take back. Fuck what did I do I was doing so good ihhhhhhgggg. Act like it never happened. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

I just did something I'll forever regret. I can't take back. Fuck what did I do I was doing so good ihhhhhhgggg. Act like it never happened. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

My heart hurts from the loss of one of my favorite artists and people. I felt like through every song he made there was a different perspective and he made me want to be different and happy. I don't think I'll get over this for days. Months. Who knows. I'm sad. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

My heart hurts from the loss of one of my favorite artists and people. I felt like through every song he made there was a different perspective and he made me want to be different and happy. I don't think I'll get over this for days. Months. Who knows. I'm sad. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Fuck. This hit me hard. I'm gonna go cry all day. Lil peep Love you crybaby. You helped me and will continue to do so

Fuck. This hit me hard. I'm gonna go cry all day. Lil peep Love you crybaby. You helped me and will continue to do so

Theres a Christmas party for my work and it's this huge blowout with liquor and there's gonna be minimum 2000 people and I'm gonna get smoked out before I go in lmao. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Theres a Christmas party for my work and it's this huge blowout with liquor and there's gonna be minimum 2000 people and I'm gonna get smoked out before I go in lmao. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

I'm kinda off. The boy I like likes me back. And we've known each other for a while. But he doesn't know how to talk to girls. How silly. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

I'm kinda off. The boy I like likes me back. And we've known each other for a while. But he doesn't know how to talk to girls. How silly. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Relationships are really kinda sketchy. Like. Why do people agree to that kind of commitment when it most likely won't even last and have many troubles. Because honestly I assume that once you have one bad relationship they're all going to be the same after that. So why bother rly •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Relationships are really kinda sketchy. Like. Why do people agree to that kind of commitment when it most likely won't even last and have many troubles. Because honestly I assume that once you have one bad relationship they're all going to be the same after that. So why bother rly •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Sometimes I just see these out of the corner of my eye. And I just can't help but examen them. See how they've changed since last time I've brought myself to look at them. I wonder how I had the Nerve to actually do this sort of permanent damage to myself. Not only here but my other leg. My lower amd upper arms my waist and stomach anywhere I could hide these from everyone. I did this. I did it to myself. And I really really regret it. People think others are crazy and insane for doing this sort of act.  And I wouldn't blame them. It's not normal. It's not sexy and it's going to be really fucking hard to explain to someone who you want to love and have sexual relations with. They have to see that every time. They have to constantly wonder what you went through that was so bad that you had to do this to yourself. And in a way you can't ever explain it in other words besides "I don't know".•_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

Sometimes I just see these out of the corner of my eye. And I just can't help but examen them. See how they've changed since last time I've brought myself to look at them. I wonder how I had the Nerve to actually do this sort of permanent damage to myself. Not only here but my other leg. My lower amd upper arms my waist and stomach anywhere I could hide these from everyone. I did this. I did it to myself. And I really really regret it. People think others are crazy and insane for doing this sort of act. And I wouldn't blame them. It's not normal. It's not sexy and it's going to be really fucking hard to explain to someone who you want to love and have sexual relations with. They have to see that every time. They have to constantly wonder what you went through that was so bad that you had to do this to yourself. And in a way you can't ever explain it in other words besides "I don't know".•_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

In your hand you wish to hold. My beating, female heart. Nearly an asylum and a half could only tolerate for so long. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror

In your hand you wish to hold. My beating, female heart. Nearly an asylum and a half could only tolerate for so long. •_#cutting#cuts#blood#bleedout#selfharm#selfmutilation #die#kms#scars #cigarette #cigars #drugs#peaceofmind #art #needles #hickeys #bruises #satan#satanism#hell#satanic#horror